Man vs. Machine

I'm supposed to be priceless.
Important.
The thought of losing me should over take one of the newest patch of a game.
I should matter, I should be the center of it.
You can only put love and work into something for so long before the absence of the other person breaks you.
I hope he thinks I'm worth everything and that he realizes this soon.
I miss that look in his eyes, the one that screams of my beauty.
I miss the little things that made us...us.

The Heart Dims

I don't do well with distance.

Distance kills me.

I fixate.

I regress.

I falter.

Distance is not my friend.

But God is he worth it. 

Sometimes...

Sometimes you have to do for loved ones what they cannot do for themselves.
Even if you have to lie to get them happy, to keep them happy.
Life isn't about just you and how you want things to happen.
This conversation tears me up and makes me feel sick.
I would lie and have my heart broken a million more times then tell you what I really think and lose you.
Because to me you will always come first, forever.